Penance

Life itself is a hard thing to go through

It is a lonely path, but not taken by others

Life itself is a penance

Lives are born with a little conscience

And the tiny conscience controls huge desire

The desire commits a sin

And the sin is judged

The desire and the sin endessly battle against each other

And the battle ends up as an agony

Thus, lives are born with agony

There are people who choose difficult life to escape from the agony

What is the agony?

It is a path of meditation

People can eliminate the agony through meditation and reach moksa

How the people can reach moksa?

It can be achieved through countless Enlightments

Once people reach moksa, can they stay in the spiritual realm forever?

The spiritual realm will be ruined if they are surrounded with temptation that exceeds the range of moksa

What does the Enlightment stand for?

Is it just to escape from the agony?

If so, isn't the penance a path to earn one's own spiritual purity?

Gautama Siddhartha

He is said to have done penance to find the truth of life's four phases of birth, old age, sickness and death

While Jejus Christ did penance for world peoples' sin

And yet, have the Koreans ever been grateful to Jejus Christ?

In no way have they

The Korean ethnic group possessed with an evil spirit pronounce a curse on Jejus Christ by leading the world that's supposed to be beautiful to the hell

Sins committed by those  possessed with evil spirit must not be forgiven

Enlightment

It is a delight in itself

It is a moment at which the world instantly looks bright

I believed I had reached Enlightment as soon as I perceived mathematical truth that I had long wanted to know

It was a wonderful joy that I could never be able to replace

What did my joy leave for the people in the world?

My noble joy left mathematical formulas and theorems in the scientific field

All people in the world will make good use of them

Was the Enlightment ascetics had reached through their hardships for the world people or for their own means to escape from the agonies?

What the meditation stands for?

It must be an absorption

The pivot of an absorption will be an immersion

A stage being immersed means the virtue

From where such a stage of immersion can be earned

Is it achievable at  prayer houses or temples in the long way off from the world of suffering?

For last twenty years

I've olny stayed at home and in the office

Both places have been my spaces for meditation and absorption

While my hands were bringing something to eat to mouth,

My two eyes always stare into space like a blind person

The empty space represents my past twenty years

What have I accomplished so far then?

I've just got a nickname called "an extreme conservative" and " a man of abnormality"

Here is one more

A few of followers who love me dearly

What did my followers love about me?

They did love my works

Through my works left

They became to love the nation and love me as well

Though my followers' path of hardship were decided at their discretion, mine has been a path of suppression

There have been no thornies on my followers' path

However, I have been forced to tread a thorny path endlessly

January 23, 2020

Jee, Man-won